Wednesday, August 19, 2009

DAY EIGHTYTWO - peace and love

Loving you
Is like loving me
It just comes naturally

And naturally
Like I knew you where the one
Brighter than the sun
Like I knew you where the one

We love each other

/Slow Train

Today I ate my lunch in nature. It was soothing and I am now returning to "life".
I feel strong, calm and centered.

It's been a while so this is what I've been eating today so far.

1 litre of filtered alkalised water with nettlepowder
0,75 litres of green smoothie (250 g spinach, 1/2 cucumber, parsley, water)
1 litre of filtered alkalised water with nettlepowder
1 large salad (150 g leafy greens, 3/4 cucumber, sesame seed sprouts and avocado) plus
1 small tomato/zuchini salad (with olives, olive oil, sea salt and sundried tomatoes)

It's now 2 pm and I'm soon having another litre of filtered alkalised water with nettlepowder.

Today sunshine earns my greatest gratitude award :)

In divine love and sound health
your servant

Monday, August 17, 2009

DAY EIGHTYONE - visions of tomorrow

Greetings beloved
Today I feel low, really low... and have done so for a couple of days. I feel empty, disillusionized, thinking about where I am in life. I woke up just to find that my vision and dreams do not match my current state even with all good will in the world, except for one thing - my family (Isak, Agnes and Linda). I'm constantly walking around in a bubble, daydreaming of being somewhere else...

As I opened my eyes I saw before me the glade where the kids used to play. Now they had walked with their mother to the gardens to prepare lunch. It was close to noon and I was starting to feel hungry. The sun was sprinkleing thru the leaves of the treas and the air was warm. A soft gust of wind made the leaves dance and the spots from the sun wink at me as I looked up. Something moved in the tree, probably a bird. I sat there for a while just staring. And then I moved my eyes to the glade and the small houses made of clay and wood surrounding it. I looked at the people working, relaxing and playing. About 20 persons divided in 6 families lived there, with only the most necessary contact with society.

The glade was really a permaculture garden filled with eatables. Right next to the glade, to the south and west, where the biodynamic allotments and on the east side was the lake. North of the small settlement was the fruit forest. It was also a cultivated forest made up of fruit trees, bushes with berries and nut trees. A couple of hundred meters to the northwest was the well. Pure spring water that flowed from the base of the ridge that streched from northeast to the west. Further south the landscape was more hilly and rough. I sat there with my own thoughts and didn't hear them comming. Suddenly someone put their hands over my eyes. I shrugged from the sudden occurance and tried to turn around. The person behind me danced along as I swung my body back and forth a couple of times and then she started to laugh.

I instantly recognised her soft voice. How could I not. I had seen her grow up from a small and helpless baby to becomming a strong and loving woman soon to turn seventeen. She was always happy, smiling almost constantly. She sat down beside me on mt left, my son on the opposite side of the table. As they did they set the table and I put my work down for the present. In a few seconds the table was set and as an angel she entered the scene. She was beautifully dressed in a light dress that brought out the best of her female body. She was as attractive on the outside as she was brilliant and loving on the inside. The shadows from the leaves danced over her and I felt the gratitude and love flood me. I smiled to her and she looked at me kindly, and then she let a warm smile conqour her face, almost knocking me of my chair. She put the food on the table and sat down on my right side. We united our hands in a circle and prepared for eating...

This is where I am - in my mind.
May all forces arise to make my dream come thru.
In divine love and sound health
your servant

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

DAY SEVENTYFIVE - biodynamic effects?

Hello loved one

This is just a short stop. Today is celebration day. 3/4 of my challenge is behind me and only 25 days is before me. 1/4 remains; and then what?

I plan to stick with my routines. I feel great about them. Some of my initial routines have been forgottten thou those that mean something to me remains. This is my usual morning routine now:

¤ wake up
¤ drink 1 litre of water
¤ hatha yoga
¤ dry brushing (on weekends)
¤ cool shower/bath
¤ green smoothie breakfast (usually spinach, cucumber and fresh herbs, sometimes avocado)

¤ usally sallad for lunch and dinner with lots of greens
¤ raw snacks (I am not even tempted by anything less)

¤ >90% fresh raw food, <10%>95% raw
¤ 4 litres of filtered water with NaHCO3 and H2O2 (3 of 4 with nettle powder)
¤ 6-8 hours of sleep
¤ excersice 3-4 times per week (outside of morning yoga)
¤ 50-75% organic (depending on availibility)

The last days have been bringing me some concern, thou I have been eating well, high in greens. I had a high fever pitch Sunday evening (9th) reaching 40,4 C (104 F). On Monday it was gone by lunch. I also had a stinging feeling three times when I had a pee. Felt a bit like urethritis, thou after the third time the feeling disapeared. I also got a headache Sunday evening which peaked on Monday at noon yet I still have a slight feeling of pain when I shake my head lightly. My mouth feels sore, my teeth feels weak and brittle and my feces are a bit runny (sorry for bringing that up). I all changed on Sunday when a did a delayed waterfast (forgetting Saturday was Saturday). There is no good explanation for this except one that I can see.

Last week most food I ate was biodynamicly grown and locally produced. The food that did not fall into this category was at least organic. I got plenty of sleep, sunlight and water and excellent nourishment for my mind and soul as well. On Saturday I had a conventionally grown raw dinner and went to sleep... woke up on Sunday fasting. And by 6 pm I was starting to feel the first signs of fever - aching muscles. By nine I had my top score. My mouth and teeth (and also a sore on the lip) started to detoriate on Tuesday rather fast. From nothing to much in one day.

My only explanation is the food. Now I'm back home and the availibility of biodynamic food is non-existent and organic is between 50-75% of what I eat. Locally grown organic is almost non-existent as well, so most of that is shipped. I hope my body readjust fast. Still I'd rather have what I had last week. Thou I now have a new target, a new goal. Just have to find a creative way to get there. Move to the food or move the food to my store?

Today I'm grateful for the rain and having my sister on visit from Marocko. I love her very much.

What have life given you today that you can use in an empowering way tomorrow?

Infinite love and excellent health
your servant